Sheep Eyes

For about the fourth time I've been back online, I am once again making an attempt at keeping a blog. I keep deleting them because, like many things recently, I get sick and resentful towards them. I'm going to try to control my anger and keep this one because the other journal I have is to painful to write in...yes, because it opens itself up and starts hitting and beating me up...ahem.
MCAS this week. I don't really care about it; it just makes me mad that the other classmen get to sleep in while we have to go take it. BUT...we get to dissect sheep eyes on Wednesday in Biology, which is the absolute highlight of my week as of right now! I'm so excited. We dissected loads of stuff in Human Physiology at PCC, and it is simply fascinating.
I keep dreaming, and this hope inside of me just won't die. No matter what I do I can't get rid of it, and all the while I know I am just setting myself up.