I was lying on the grass on Sunday morning of last week, indulging in my self defeat."

Ahoy! I have nothing better to do with my pitiful, yet wondrous, life as of right now, so I've decided to update my blog. I hope you all had a very happy Christmas! Mine was lovely. I'm beginning to realize how blessed I am with my life, which is good. I have epiphonies every so often, and they make me cry. But it's in a good way. I started reading this book today that I got a few Christmases past, and it's really a help. A help to what, I have no idea. But it's a help to something! It's called "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff," and it's really interesting. For instance, there is one chapter that discusses how your thoughts control your life. If one is thinking horrible, pessimistic and frustrated thoughts, then what will the end result be? I sort of agree with him when he writes about how if we think so negatively, then life will be spoiled. I know that sometimes things are so bad that we can't help but think like that. But today I learned that if I am constantly looking down upon myself, then life will be miserable. It is going by way too fast, and I've taken it for granted. I don't know what I'm trying to get at here. But see! After that sentence "I don't know what I'm trying to get at here," I probably would have written something like "I'm probably making myself look like an idiot!" That's the sort of stuff that brings a person down!! Why think thoughts such as that? It's a waste of time! A waste of energy!! A waste of life!!! Oh man, I cannot convey my thoughts today. I am a madwoman!! Well, if you care to grasp a better understanding of what I'm talking about, then I'll lend you the book I was referring to. If not, then perhaps you will forever think me crazy, which is fine by me! The bottom line is: Make yourself feel good. Enjoyment is a neccesity. It shouldn't be such a strenuous task. Do we make it difficult for ourselves?

Anywho, vacation has gone fairly well I suppose. I need to get out of the house more often. I've been having odd dreams lately! Well I suppose all dreams are weird. I think I'm going to go learn some German right now. Lately I've aspired to learn a lot of different languages. Such a dar obsession.


And of course you can't become if you only say what you would have done
So I missed a million miles of fun