I was lying on the grass on Sunday morning of last week, indulging in my self defeat."

Ahoy! I have nothing better to do with my pitiful, yet wondrous, life as of right now, so I've decided to update my blog. I hope you all had a very happy Christmas! Mine was lovely. I'm beginning to realize how blessed I am with my life, which is good. I have epiphonies every so often, and they make me cry. But it's in a good way. I started reading this book today that I got a few Christmases past, and it's really a help. A help to what, I have no idea. But it's a help to something! It's called "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff," and it's really interesting. For instance, there is one chapter that discusses how your thoughts control your life. If one is thinking horrible, pessimistic and frustrated thoughts, then what will the end result be? I sort of agree with him when he writes about how if we think so negatively, then life will be spoiled. I know that sometimes things are so bad that we can't help but think like that. But today I learned that if I am constantly looking down upon myself, then life will be miserable. It is going by way too fast, and I've taken it for granted. I don't know what I'm trying to get at here. But see! After that sentence "I don't know what I'm trying to get at here," I probably would have written something like "I'm probably making myself look like an idiot!" That's the sort of stuff that brings a person down!! Why think thoughts such as that? It's a waste of time! A waste of energy!! A waste of life!!! Oh man, I cannot convey my thoughts today. I am a madwoman!! Well, if you care to grasp a better understanding of what I'm talking about, then I'll lend you the book I was referring to. If not, then perhaps you will forever think me crazy, which is fine by me! The bottom line is: Make yourself feel good. Enjoyment is a neccesity. It shouldn't be such a strenuous task. Do we make it difficult for ourselves?

Anywho, vacation has gone fairly well I suppose. I need to get out of the house more often. I've been having odd dreams lately! Well I suppose all dreams are weird. I think I'm going to go learn some German right now. Lately I've aspired to learn a lot of different languages. Such a dar obsession.


And of course you can't become if you only say what you would have done
So I missed a million miles of fun

"I Bring You Tidings of Great Joy...."

That Linus, I'm telling ya!! He's something else! Always the wise one, he is. He is the Peanuts character who knows things. He's a lot more intelligent than all the other ones, which is why he interests me. It's almost as though he as a sixth sense. He's a very good people-person. That quote in my title is from part of the speech Linus gives to Charlie Brown when he explains to him what Christmas is all about. Haha, and Linus is quoting something biblical when he says that, but I can't tell you the name of it. Anyways, I watched that this evening, and the part where Linus makes that speech really kind of moved me tonight. I don't know why. I hadn't seen that movie in a long time, so maybe I just really didn't understand it or pay attention or something. I got angry just a little while ago, and I thought of the Charlie Brown Christmas special, and it happytized me. I know that sounds stupid, but it was sort of how the Grinch works or something!! One minute I just hated everyone and felt the need to scream, but I thought of that and things were better. Hehe, Snoopy is so funny!!! He can be such a little snob sometimes, but it is so amusing!!! MWAEAHHHHHH!! He is my favorite cartoon character ever!! Ahh, Charlie Brown makes me so happy. I love simple things, and what I love even more about them is when they elate you. Thank you Charles Schultz for the wonderful, uplifting, and inspiring comic that you have given to us!!! Hahaha, it's hard to believe that Charlie Brown is something that keeps me going. But hey, whatever the hell it takes!!!!

Good night!

:)

In Beeeeeeyooooooootiful North Attleboro (haha, that was on the commerical that was just on the radio)

Fellas and Gals,

I would like to say that everything is beautiful!!!! I have a splendid life, that includes a remarkable, yet crazy, family, marvelously odd friends, a magnificent boyfriend, an odd puppy, good jobs, a wonderful house, a warm bed, a radio currently blaring Bruce Springstein who is singing "Santa Claus is Coming to Town," a lot of other stuff, the ability do whatever the hell I want to, and I want everyone to know how much I love and appreciate them and all they do. If I complain a lot or ever seem ungrateful, please excuse my behavior because I don't mean it at all. Gracias para todo.



Things are good. :)